A journey started with kiss of a grandma, beard of a grandpa, the touch of a mother, toffee of a father, rakhi of a sister, pat of a brother, shoulder of a friend, drops of rain, smell of earth, thunder of a storm, beauty of new high bosom girl, click of a eye, pen of a billet-doux, smooch of a beloved, slap of a girl's brother, break of heart, tears of helplessness, same shoulder of friend, search for new...and on and on.
The long-drawn tale of life brimming with tears and laughter lies fluttering like a blank scroll on the breast of inexorable time. As if the pilgrim on the road to death leaves behind everything! An insider look…what really brought while coming??? A fleshy doll like body with unstoppable cry…and leave a crumbling body to decay and stink.
Yes, this is the end…but from where I began?
The skies have no beginning and no end. The sun neither rises nor sets. The heart’s desire is neither fulfilled nor left empty. Our relationship too has no name to write and no beginning for tie the end. Even after relating everything of life the last word is invariably let unsaid. After receiving everything, the completeness is left. After all has ended, the auspicious beginning remains. Inauguration is itself dissolution.
Yes…yes…this is the end…but what I have started???
Life…its eternal. I did not!
My life..its from my parents!
Love…its you who made me realize!
Lust, greed and anger…I am not sure, you better tell me!
Then what…is the answer ‘nothing’? I don’t wanna hear!!!
Today, let me write the beginning of the end. Some day you will come this across and I ll find the point where the beginning ends.
Have you ever seen a Kid smiling and running behind a butterfly? You must be. But is it possible to feel the same enthusiasm of a Kid in this Devilish world? For a very few, it’s YES, For a Few it’s DIFFICULT, for many the answer is NO and for Devils like me, it’s IMPOSSIBLE.
But God is always with a shower of wonders to make you believe on destiny. So as a Devil like me met with a ‘Kid’ who is nothing but a sweet chatterbox, a bundle of joy, a box full of questions, a heart overflowing with enthusiasm and a face glowing with joy of happiness, an act of mischief to disturb my nonsense thought, an unwanted intruder when I want to hide my tears, a child who never says its enough, who never let me believe that I am a ‘Devil’ but an answering machine named “Happy”. It’s for hers, a ‘Devil’ like me came across a “Happy” within.
I always feel that ‘language’ is the word which tells..... “I am here, you stupid heart bearing creatures, without me what is the use of your creativity and intelligence, its for the sake of me (language) only you are able to project yourself as you are”. It made me believe that there is nothing like “feeling” without the “language” to make it feel. But it’s the Kid who made me to answer the stupid language of heart.
Let’s leave the ‘language’ to be an ornament of the dictionary, but not the jewel of heart, let’s close our eyes to lock the ‘language’ of eyes to spread, let’s shut out mouth to arrest the sound to murmur, let’s leave the heart to be on its own. Let’s be free. Then only it is possible for a Devil to answer the innocent questions of a Kid.
The Kid always asks the Devil a hell lots of questions to answer (no option for ‘I can’t answer’….the Kid wont leave) on variety of topics. Everyday is a new day for the ‘Kid’ and a challenge for the ‘Devil’ to be as devilish as it can be. The different sections in the conversation denote the different sets of questions asked by the ‘Kid’ in different days. Following are few conversations, in my view, worth mentioning.
About the Kid: The 'Kid' who made me write all this mess, was my ex-collegue, but she was surprisingly with a heart and mind of a kid in a grown up physique. I know that kid; did I say the best kid? She often comes to my desk when I am away and searches for her diary milk in my drawer and waits for none to run. She has a frontal lobe with multi barrel question-gun to shoot at anything possible under the sunlight, moon light too. The one thing she does not question is when I hand her over a piece of my writing. She keeps her gun for a rest and giggles like a lily swinging on water and asks, ‘when I ll be a writer?’
Devil vs. Kid: Change, is a part of the series, Devil vs. Kid which discusses about various topics such as, Self Identification, Life, Fear, Hell and Heaven, Change and Stars etc. Please read the introduction first, before moving further.
CHANGE
Kid: I want to control the change.....is it possible to change along with the change?
Devil: It’s inevitable.....whether you want or not you will change.....because when the vehicle of "CHANGE" is on the way it will automatically take the "PASSERBY" into its lap....there is no escape.....It is the mind which remains stationary in the past place and takes some time to think.....I have moved....that’s why sometimes confusion comes that some people are not able to cope with change....But the reality is their physical being and mental status is not at the same pace with the change.
Kid: Who run the change of vehicle?
Devil: Time is at the driver’s seat individuals are the passengers...You want or not you have to move on.
Kid: What about the person who never believes in time......
Devil: Its not that you believe or not....time does not depend on individual belief....if you don’t believe that heart pumps the blood....nothing will happen....it will not let you die for this, it will still pump. It’s on you, how soon u believe, U will be Happy.
Kid: Change is for those people who want to see the bright color in my life, sometimes its quite easy for me to identify the hidden bright color but its quite difficult when somebody’s want me to show that color.......situation demand changes....changes seems to be sad and gloomy
Devil: I want U to be the one who drives the change....not the situation.
Kid: Already a driver, will never accept the unwanted things easily, the role which u are playing in my life is unknown, no name, but it makes me quite organized, I like the changes which you brought in my life changes in terms of organizing my thought ideas and dreams… ooops
"A cunning change stand in front of me, expect me to react......But when I act....I did not react...I just make the change to smile"
Devil: wow!!! Smiling at the change means "U accept the change to happen without changing UR values and rules"....changes feels shame and tell ....I am just a driver....U drive as U like.
Kid: I like my curious mind to drive a new bright idea while handling a change.......but here the case is not for one Benjamin*.....in every mode I found a new Benjamin...Here Benjamin does not represent a motion picture character...its a curious case of challenges in my life
Devil: Then You should be proud of that God is giving you challenge every moment to test you in fire.....Like Gold glitters more in fire, you will shine...God gives load to the person with strong backbone.....Challenges are the expression of LOVE from God to the people he loves the most and thinks capable of...
*Benjamin refers to the character of the movie ‘The curious case of Benjamin Button”
Kid: What is the difference between challenges and opportunities ? Is there any relation between two? If Yes then why?
Devil: Opportunities always come with the price of a determination to accept the challenge.... You will have an opportunity if and only if you accept the challenge.
Kid: What is the need of accepting or rejecting? If we will do those then again we are doing business, isn’t it?
Devil: Sometimes we accept our own mistake....own well-being and ill-being....own values.....like this we have to accept without thinking that its coming from outside.....do you ever think that your mistakes are done by someone else....if no...Then you are accepting your own mistake....like that you have to accept others thinking that it’s not coming from outside...accept others like you accept yours.
Kid: Give an Example?
Devil: Love means accepting without any prerequisite...like U accept your own self……love is something where there is no need to understand the language of mind.........Necessary sometimes.....not necessary most of the times...see....in Love U have to accept the NO.
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Kid: when your Kid was born...same time a star was also born in the beautiful night sky......gazing into that bright twinkling star.......your Kids becomes intuitive
Devil: it’s the sign made by God to show to the world..... Hey fellow people, see this star....it’s a mirror image of my latest creation for you.
Kid: Do u know how a star is born?
Devil: when God makes his latest creation with love....he makes a start to let others know.....a miracle is on the soil to amuse my presence
Kid: This time it does not satisfy, still searching why a star is born, there is a conflict between your thought and mine.
Devil: God does not ask for approval....vehicle of time rides on the road of change....it does not ask you to get in....it makes you in....it does not ask your satisfaction.....it commands the very beginning of the creation like that a star is born for a Devil.... for me when god makes his latest creation on earth.....to let others know....makes a star…
Kid: Oops I can only feel whenever a star is born.......sorry
Devil: For people like you star is not meant for...for people who cant feel the presence of God....how they will feel the creation of latest creation of God....for them to remind...Stars are born
Kid: You know for people like me there is a different world, full of imagination?
Devil: For you stars are a feeling of rejoice that God has not stopped...God is not fed up by the evils of man....God still hopes that there will be change......Its a feeling....that God tried once again with his latest creation....so its a feeling for you....but for others to know its a star.
Stars do talk.....stars do feel.....stars do try for God to believe in his creation.....it’s a world full of hope....full of twinkling smiles
Kid: A beautiful feeling arises in the form of star in my heart.....a feeling to imagine how a star is born?
Devil: God always wants everywhere to be lighted.....he made Sun.....but darkness came unwontedly to remind God.....evil still exists......God did not give up....He created moon to light the earth......but it fluctuate with time...came and went......God has no way to believe that there still hope exists.....then the stars came .....when the darkness increases.......God starts loosing hope....But the stars smile and tell the God.....we may be tiny ....we may not be useful as Sun and Moon.....but believe us...We wont let you down.....when all will deny give there light...we will burn our self to light the hope......God said TATHASTU....and in the remembrance of this hope he stared developing ...modifying the creature....and whenever he makes a best creation....he makes a star to tell himself...its a faith that Earth will change.....
Kid: there is an empty envelope for you for answering my question....how star is born....searching a reason to do something different, searching a bright color to put into the white shades of my life
Devil: when life is at white you should be proud of........It reflects all shades of emotions equally without bias, without any love for some ...... trying to reflect something special color will make you bias towards a particular emotion.....Only saints and true mature ones are white......if you are thinking so....then why to change ???
Devil: God gets strength from their people’s belief......angel gets the wings when Kids hold her hands...
Kid: Let me hold the person who is sending these beautiful words…. am I?
Devil: It’s the privilege that with mere words....a sweet Kid holds a Devil.
Kid: who knows Devil is the other form of angel
Devil: How do I know......it’s the people who believe on angels?
Kid: Earlier I used to believe on angels only, now looking forward to keep a faith upon Devil also, what to say?
Devil: "A belief on angels is gr8, let me be in hell...let me believe a Devil...let me see.... let me believe on my belief ....let me show that a Devil is an angel in its own way"
Kid: What is the difference between hell and heaven, right now are u in hell or heaven? Is u an angel or a Devil ?
Devil: Both are opposite side of a coin.....if your belief matches with someone else and u both want to stay together ....then its heaven.....if both are staying together and praying to escape....its hell.
Kid: let me forget that a Devil is an angel in its own way....let me believe that a Devil is already an angel in my own way....let me stand in a position where I can hold Devil in one hand and angel in other....let me feel the two opposite side of a coin.
Devil: its difficult to feel both at a time......if you hold angel in one hand then whatever u r going to hold with the other will be and angel too...and vice versa.....But for an innocence Kid like u ......its possible.....its most likely that the Devil will voluntarily cover its face and prays the almighty to remove the Devilish if not be an angel…are u thinking whether Kids are innocent or not?
Kid: people think that Kids are innocent but real fact is that Kids are the most matured flower in the world, as soft as the petals of flower which can always hold the thorns which is quite matured.
Devil: Sun does not require an approval to be Sun, God does not ask the people to pray to him to bless them.......its immaterial whether someone approves that Kids are innocent.
Innocence come from maturity......when someone is very intelligent and knows the reason why he or she is on the earth.....then she or he becomes innocent.....but Childs are born innocent....they don’t require all the intelligence to know the reasons.......that’s why they are called as the little forms of living Gods.
My Kid is the most intuitive one I have ever met.......one can be so generous and sweet if he or she knows all the reasons for the happenings or all the answers for the unasked questions......but my Kid is born like that.....which in otherwise stands as an example that without all the intelligence, reasoning, answers how someone can be innocent.
Kid: No no….don’t cheat. You are a bundle of answers named Happy.
Devil: Ok, I am a Happy
Kid: Then now tell, what makes you Happy?
Devil: It’s like a Paper make a pen to be a pen for which it is meant for....and in the same way...Only sweet Kids make some Devil as Happy.
Kid: Don’t you have your own identification? How can you allow someone to make you Happy?
Devil: Identity is required when someone wants to know you.....For own self; I don’t think there is a need.
Kid: Self-identification is not a need or a want....It’s a desire to know yourself what you are.
Devil: A person (let’s take a male) lives on as a son, a brother, a lover, a husband, a fathers, a student, a teacher, as an employee or as an employer...... Tell me someone who lives as himself without these identities.......God is also bonded....as savior, as listener of Devotees, as creator, as destroyer, as God.......its all relative identities....what is absolute identity....what is the self identity.......there may be...May be U know....May be I am not brave till now to know about the fact “who I am in absolute sense”.
Kid: Self-identity is the mirror image of your principles or you can say your alter-ego of your value system.........Don’t you have any principles in your life? Don’t you have your own value system?....Its quite easy to erase the reality behind every practicality.....You can share your self-identity as a cowardice....Who you are in absolute sense does not want you to answer as a brave one......There is no expectation from the answer given by a cowardice but sometimes there answer germinate a new question which is quite meaningful…
Devil: value system always derived when someone is around you to see....when you have fear to do or not to do......when all these are around you...then everything is relative....identity too... so as my identity....a relative one
Kid: look just now a brave mind came and confuse me!!!!
Devil: confusion is relative.....it’s a contradiction to something you believe on.... it’s not absolute.
Kid: what is the difference between relative and absolute?
Devil: ‘You’ with ‘world’ are relative....Only ‘you’ is absolute.
Devil: this is a contrasting sentence.....’Afraid’ and ‘Kid’ don’t go along.
Kid: Why I am afraid? Fear creates a huge space in my subconscious mind........ My mind is not free
Devil: fear is the outcome of unpreparedness. Just rethink. You are not prepared for something. That’s why you are feeling the fear. Remember destiny favors the prepared.
Kid: I am tired of being preparedness.....waiting for the destiny to play a role....want to behave like a fool....tired of being a smart Kid always.
Devil: its other side of smartness to be being fool......only prepared spirit with a smart mind can accept all happenings as a fool...... foolishness is not the state of being in ignorance.....its the way of allowing the heart to rule the mind without reasoning.....its only possible if u r prepared.
Kid: smart answer for inspiring a Kid who wants to be fool.
Devil: smart answers are always possible who is always prepared to be questioned ....who is always prepared to be extracted....always prepared to accept all....like a fool... a fool can answer smart.
Kid: everything seems to be dull, except the question which is there in my mind, interesting question caged my whole night, waiting for an angel to come and answer my question
Devil: this is a good sign.... when all seems dull it means....your mind is faster than the current happenings.
Kid: Oops this time my angel lost her wings.
Devil: angles fly as the beloved looks at......God helps...the way the people ask for......like if angels lost her wings....its up to U how u r making her to fly.
Kid: I asked her to smile, to fly.....But she is busy in making others smile
Devil: wow! This is a gr8 time to understand and estimate your faith on your angel.
Kid: There is no estimation between me and my angel
Devil: if u believe that your angel really care for u ....then u should pray that angel should succeed in her duty to make others smile......you have to realize that if my angel is trying to make others smile means....other need more than you need you angel....others are in more pathetic than you..
Kid: I know that even I used to do that but......I am habituated.....everyday I used to play with my angel.....suddenly she went......the feeling of jealous hold me tightly..... Unable to conquer the feeling of jealous
Devil: Jealousy sometimes good..... Let’s think other wise.
Kid: I never believe in otherwise, anyways sometimes I am Happy also experiencing all shades of emotions in my life
Devil: if you think that your angel is caring more about others then you must understand that’s others need more.....here comes jealousy.....all evil words and acts always have hidden beauty.....general aspect is being jealous on others that angel is spending more time with them and being disturbed....but the beautiful state of mind is to try to solve others problems that they wont need your angel.....its the positive root to make good to others ...... here jealousy can play the "otherwise"....which u don’t like as said earlier.....but its worth an insight
Kid: You heard a sound.....sound of bell.....right now my angel got her wings back........she is on the way to meet me.
Devil: That’s the spirit......when you believe that your angel has wings that means you are sure you’re your problems have solutions, when you believe that there is a solution......then it’s impossible that u can’t get the solution
Kid: Sometimes in life some person play a major role in our life, sometimes in life same person don’t have time to play a minor role in our life. Why it is so?
Devil: life itself is a play. its not that someone is playing a major or minor role....its the fact to understand that your life deserves someone more at sometimes and someone less at other times.....its life, and it will be the way... so don’t think some one is playing a role in our life instead think our life has little or more role for someone to play.
Kid: I like it.
Devil: You like it because.....You knew the fact and it’s my sentence which made u remember that you knew this.
Kid: Is life is very beautiful?
Devil: Everyday is special. This moment will never come again into life, that’s the beauty of life....every moment is new and teaches how to live on that, I made up the decision, it fits so well in describing an extremely interesting phenomenon that many people may not realize…each of us is really two people, I mean we are literally two thinking beings residing in the same body.
Kid: why we are getting contradicting thoughts? Let me organize my contradicting thoughts in my life?
Devil: That’s the toughest job of a life time to organize the contrasting thoughts ...... the basic problem is in the thought...Organizing is making all in one format or other, and contrasting is to deviate from the order....How to hold the two contradicting thoughts in our life.
Kid:Let me hold one character in my mind and play a live practical role, another character will be hold by my pen where the words play an imaginative role, I will write one of my contrasting characters in my diary. what is the main hindrance while holding value system?
Devil: value system will always dominate our thinking....Its always one...It will support one personality type....when U will contrast then U have to defy your value system....its difficult but anyone can do that.
Kid: what is the difference between value system and thinking?
Devil: There is no comparison….. Value system is a scale with which U will judge your thinking whether its good to act upon or not
Kid: what is the comparison between compromise and adjustment?
Devil: Compromise is more permanent than adjustment......In compromise you have to leverage on your values by sacrificing some but in adjustment you have to make a temporary state where you don’t have to sacrifice your values....you just have to make a temporary pause on your value system to interfere....your value system is still intact and after the situation passes your value system will play its tune....but in case of compromise....once you are into it....your value system has changed to another level.....there are certain things which you cant make....if you make it then the divine will go away.....the meaning will change.
